So this is the first time I’m attempting the Word Press weekly photo challenge, this week’s photo challenge is ‘Habit’ – The stuff of the everyday – places we go, things we do, people we see.
Today is Saturday, YAY! So I’m sitting at my desk drinking my morning cup of tea thinking about what I’m going to do today. I decided I’d kept my phone on me and whenever I did something take a photo (except when I had a shower, didn’t take a photo in there).
I’ve ended up with photos of: dirty dishes, putting clothes in the washing machine, multiple cups of tea, my son on his play mat, the rubbish bin, my writing desk, my son sitting on my lap at my writing desk, my lunch, my husband, my car, the chocolate I drove to the store to buy, the bottle of Windex I used to clean the shower screen, blah blah blah.
I figured I’d go with the photo of my son sitting on my lap at my writing desk, as the challenge is called Habit and he has a habit of ‘talking’ to me until I pick him up and sit him on my lap, the down side is a few times now when he’s tried to ‘help’ me type, by banging on the keyboard, he’s deleted what I’ve been typing, but he’ll just pull a cheeky smile and I’ll forgive him. It is Impossible to get a photo of him getting his cheeky smile on tho.
So I’m going back to work 4 half days a week now. It’s fairly flat out at work, so I guess I don’t get much time to feel sorry for myself and miss my son.
I would much rather be at home with my son and I would quit work altogether if we could afford it. I’ve loved the four months I’ve gotten to be a stay at home mum, getting to play with and watch my son grow, having seven days a week to get the house work done as appose to the two days I had when I was working full time. I refuse to go back to work full time, to hell with the consequences, even if it means we have to change our lifestyle, I just want to be with my son.
Just thought I’d add how I loathe house work, but I hate a messy house just as much, if I could just keep my husband out of the house then it would stay clean – hmmm I’m sure lots of women have this problem.
I did enjoy the time I had back at work this week tho – apart from the new guy – Now I sense that maybe he’s just trying to fit in and make everyone like him, perhaps, but he never shuts up, he chimes in on everyone’s conversations, drives me nuts.
When I first met him I wasn’t keen on him, but I said to myself give him the benefit of the doubt, you’re just being biased because you were so close to his predecessor. His predecessor and I used to spend our lunch times talking and whingeing about the world, kind of like what I do with this blog now. Ok so yes I am biased so I asked one of my workmates what he thought of the new bloke and he confirmed, no the new guy is a wanker and a pain in the arse – DAMN IT! Was hoping it was just me and I’d get over it.
So I’ve started the painful task of typing up all my poems and random rambles that I’ve been writing on scrap bits of paper and keeping in a box for the last ten years. Oh dear god what have I gotten myself into. I’m only bothering to type up and keep the ones I like or are meaningful to me, so a lot is going in the bin. It’s turning out to be sort of therapeutic, destroying my old fears and issues 🙂 any way here’s one I found, now I was obviously very angry at the time and I’m over what caused me to be so angry.
When I write angry sometimes my poems can tend not to flow and be rather odd, but I like this one and think it reads well, so here you go:
It’s not just you
You’re not that special
If you think it’s only you
Then you’re fucking mental
We’ve all got issues
We’ve all got pain
You think my excuses are not valid
I just think you’re simple and lame
It’s plain to see
Why you hate me
What’s not so simple
Is the fact
That’s as hard as I try
I can’t hate you back
Hanging onto bitterness isn’t good, best to get it out of your system – Remember to smile people, it makes you live longer!!!!